Stress!

The past few weeks have been very stressful for me.  First came two competing job offers, a rushed decision, and then regret.  I know that no matter which choice I made, there would be some form of regret and that neither option would have been stress-free.  I am just wondering if I made the decision based on the wrong reasons (like listening more to others than to myself and the fear of starting over at a new place).  But I am moving beyond that and accepting the choice that I have made.  Part of my staying with the company was to increase my project management responsibilities.  My boss has been very quick to move on getting me started in a mentoring relationship with a current project manager.  Which is both nice and overwhelming.  I still have a lot on my plate at work that needs to be wrapped up before I can take time to start a new project, but I am working on carving out even a few minutes each day to think about it. 

And then there's the move.  I have been really blessed to have people scheduling things with me the past few weeks.  I wish I was better at living like it was my last few weeks in a place and really taking advantage of everything a place has to offer.  Most of the time I am stuck in our routine and don't venture out too much.  I forget that we live in one of the largest cities in the US.  There is so much to do here that I am blind to in the dailiness of life.  And so many great people that I will miss. Being so surrounded by friends, its hard to believe that when we moved here we didn't know anyone. 

This weekend we are going to Minneapolis to pick out an apartment, so I should have an address again by Sunday.  That will feel good.  Next week will start the packing.  Once I know what our next floor plan will look like and how much cabinet/closet space there will be, I will know what needs to get packed first and end up in storage. 

Work will have to understand a little less productivity until we get settled again.  Its hard to concentrate on a report when really all you can think about is where you will be living in 2 weeks.  

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